Well hello xanga how have you been... i know its been a while
SooOOOoOoOOOOoOOoo i wonder what i would do with out this... (probably be on facebook right now) but anyways just wanted to write something since i haven't wrote anything in awhile... But anyways there really isn't anything new .. just school being there and doing work for once.. and trying to pass now.. i really regret for not doing work at all. Now all the time i have wasted just killed my chances to getting into a decent school. but anyway its all good. Enough of that cause y talk about school when your already out of it ... your in school for 7 hrs so i should stop talking about it....
Now for life... Heys i got a new dog ... thats been pretty awesome but you need like lots and lot of patiences for it . And all the dog crap you need to clean up when its not even trained ... that is a pain in the ass .. especially right after school when you come home and see all that crap everywhere... hmm what else... OOOHHH i think me having a car is something new ... even though i had it for a couple weeks now ... sooo i need to keep my grades up to keep the car.. and some money to fix it up too .. and i guess enough of that too
relationship wise i don't give a shit anymore... cause i can't really get anything that i want.. soo thats crap ... always stuck in the friendzone.... and i don't seem like i am type of guy that would be a person bf.. so i am done trying .. what ever i try to do something comes in the way ... people moving or the just something that creates tension between the two... now you can say that i am 0-3 for trying..
so yea thats wats new and my b day is coming up
wish list - money - clothes - new basketball - new laptop - tv - A FREAKING PHONE - car seat covers - new radar -eye lid headlights iono something is always cool
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I saw a shooting star
So when I was playing basketball with the guys I looked up and saw a shooting star. First thing I thought to myself was that lightning or a real shooting star. Of course it was lightning it would be different so I made a wish the next couple seconds. Well of course I couldn’t tell you want I wished for, that would ruin everything. But I guess my wish was reasonable since it could really happen and it wasn’t like let me win a million dollars or something. But then again I was thinking could it really happen. So yea I don’t know why I made that my wish since that was the first thing that came into my head.
Anyway so let’s see life has been the same as always nothing to do at the house and always wanting to leave since there is nothing to do. All I do is play on the wii get bored then lay down on my bed and watch tv. Its became a routine now since there isn’t much on tv. Starts from what I like about you to freaking girlmore girls to 70 show .. then watch Filipino tv for the rest of the time. And in between all that I just be on facebook. But at least today I got to drive around and practice before my driving test. I really need a car so I can go get a job and start getting things that I want. And at least when I have I refuse tomoney my parents can’t say no and I don’t get to go out when I want to. It sucks that I am broke cause I want to go to the moviesand go take the person to cheese cake factory but I can’t afford it . And I really feel back cause I am really over due on it and for me I never break a promise.And yea my parents bought me some new cloths but that isn’t enough wow you bought me a couple things but I need new more than that my wardrobe is freaking old. But only problem is my parents are bitching said they don’t want to take me to work. I told them let me work so I can get a god damn phone. Yea I know working will be a pain in the ass. But since their not giving me anything I need money to buy things.
Now for the usual so I moved on from the old one …. And that’s been done.But old feelings are coming back for this other person. I don’t know what to do again but what can I really do. I don’t see the person all the time and won’t see the person in school. I wish I made a move along time ago but there was a slight issue that made me just quit and I think it could still be a problem now. And this time its not me it the other person still having someone effect it. Only If I had a car and money I would actually have a chance. And try to make something happen but no nothing. I can’t plan anything and I won’t be able to do anything. What can I really do from just talking to the person…. Yes I could get closer to the person but I don’t feel anything from behind a computer. But whatever can’t do anything right now. Which makes me really pissed cause whenever I want to go after something I can do it with everything I can. And I don’t want to say oh forget and just give up because that is what I have been doing for my whole life. I always pass things up when I hesitate. Done for the night write again when something good happens
See, baby I apologize For all the things that I've done, that I've done See I know that I've been a fool For far too long Baby you don't have to Go and run away Just come back to papa Please baby baby won't you stay If you really love me Then why are you leaving me? I can't live Thinkin' about this crazy thang I lose sleep Just to daydream about you baby (oooh)
Chorus I'm going crazy crazy crazy Just from thinking about you lately (crazy, babe) I'm going crazy crazy crazy Just from thinking about you baby (I don't know what to do, ooh) I'm going crazy crazy crazy crazy Thinking about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy) I'm going crazy crazy (crazy crazy) When I can't touch you Crazy crazy (I'm going crazy) When I can't hold you Crazy crazy (I'm goin crazy) When I can't see you again
Said I'm going crazy Baby baby baby baby Said I'm going crazy
Now I've finally realized That you are my true love And I had a lot of time to think And you're all I seem to keep think, to keep thinking of, yeah Now I know I need you Each and every day I can't live without you So don't run away Baby you said that you love me So why did you leave me Why why why why? I can't live Thinkin' about this crazy day I lose sleep Just to daydream about you baby (oooh)
Chorus I'm going crazy crazy crazy Just been thinking about you lately (just from thinkin') I'm going crazy crazy crazy Just been thinking about you baby (I'm goin craze, I'm goin crazy) I'm going crazy crazy crazy crazy (oaah) Thinking about you lately (de de doodle do) I'm going crazy crazy (crazy crazy) When I can't touch you Crazy crazy (I'm going crazy) When I can't hold you Crazy crazy (wooah) When I can't see you again
If I could see you again I would go If I could see you again I 'd go crazy
so summer school just finished and i have nothing to do now . now all i will probably do is clean the house and try to get my fatass off the couch and workout. And then go back out and look for a job even though it kinda late now. All the college people probably took them already. But it doesn't hurt to try right. I am pretty much the only one in my regular group now that doesn't have a job again. Eman is going to get his job at academy and mike is already working there. as for tyrone he is long gone with his own life with college and working at what ever the ice cream place is. Lucky for him he gets to go were ever he wants since he is living on his own. iono if i want to take that rode but that is always open for me. but anyway i got summer school over with and those should be good grades. And most of all i am hoping i go back to kerr . really after being in taylor made me consider going there. cause it was easy and really no distractions. but at the same time i like not being bothered at kerr . no worries about fighting and i can keep my calm over at kerr easier. but there is still time to move i guess.
i can't stop reading news about the rockets so i will write about it a little. With the new addition of chad budinger and jermaine taylor that gives us some size with the 1 and the 2 . after those two picks i wouldn't resign von wafer because you already have two guys that can already get up and the other two will fill the wholes of the team. after that since yao is injured i would go after stoudmire since you already know what he will bring to the team and make the rockets a running team. with him already knowing how to play as a running team it will fit more perfectly and with the size help stop big defenders. so i would trade tmac and brooks. yes people would get mad at me for saying that but i would give jermaine taylor a chance to improve and let budinger a chances to play at the 2 guard. my idea most likely won't happen but i can dream. and most of all i am forgetting another player . brad newley an australian that plays both the 1 and the 2. he shown wat he could do during the olmpyics and can score on the american all stars. also i would give him a chance to play in nba since it was also his dream. more over we have another play that hasn't played at all yet is joey dorsey who is only 6-8 but stronger enough to move other big centers. even though he is small it gives us another person downlow. basically a chuck hayes but has a better shot. or could actually shoot. and lastly james white who hasn't played much and has his videos on youtube. from trainers he has shown improvement and gotten better practicing with the rockets. i would also give him a chance to develop and see what he can do . he has fix his shot and always remain a highflyer ( which will bring people to the game and again forget about von wafer) i am not hating on von wafer . i loved him after a couple games but i realized that he was a really inconsistent shooter and we don't really want another tmac. he has his good games and really bad ones . also he could bring down the moral of the team with old problems with aldeman. so i am done with my say of the rockets
now to the usual part to wat i write in xanga. so i guess people could tell that i look kinda down in the dumps. but its just that i have nothing to get excited about. ever since school ended i slowly got over the old person. and i am glad i got over that and not go on forever and ever. but the thing was i went back to the original since she became single again. i know i should say something like i did with the previous one , which was a good experience since that was the first time i told them first. and this time i want to again but the problem is she is heading off to college and i feel like it is useless. and i really don't know how she is going to take it. cause with the previous one people told me she wasn't going to react so that is why i told her . now with the older one i really don't know how she will react. so i been going through the pros and cons if i tell her and the decision is still undecided. cause wat is the use if we really do go out . and that is a pretty small chance that is going to happen since she is older than me for one . and i don't think she thinks i am mature enough for her. also she is heading off to college . and also her type of friends like to go out and club . and i can't really do that . so i can't really keep up with her. and wat support am i to her when she already has other guy friends that she talks to. and i barely see and speak to her. i have no car to go over to her place and visit her. also we barely even oovoo. and we do just message one another once in awhile but that is it. nothing....and how can i take her out when i have no money. and i have other things i want to buy and stuff. that is all i got right now. i could just be waining about nothing thou and being a pussy not making move. eh its ok i guess i am only 16 i still got the rest of my life to think about. i just think about this stuff cause the things i do eventually gets me thinking about this kind of stuff. the book breathing underwater , boy meets world , the wonder years, seeing my relatives, my friends that are going out with someone, music that i hear everywhere, movies that are being shown on tv and in the movie theatre.so yea i think i am done i got everything out i guess. the only thing that i haven't done is probably work out consistently. alrights find more to write later...............
- Leo
weak by jojo is a pretty good song was originally written by swv
